The perception of my work has really degraded at work lately. With this change, many things that I do are challenged before they are released for testing. Coworkers are going directly to the manager when they should be working one-on-one with me. My manager had caught a lot of heat for a bug found close to the release date and has been judging every change that is made to the code.
The problem is that most of these changes that I catch a lot of heat for deal with code that I am unfamiliar with. I usually end up fixing most of it, but overlook a small problem that I didn’t account for. Half the time the problems are due to bad programming practices by people who no longer work on the project. Other problems are a result of high-pressure deadlines that are immediate. When you work fast, problems are always going to arrise.
Some of these bugs are really simple and can be fixed in very little time. However, the fact that they exist really gets blown out of proportion. I had thought that I was working one-on-one with a coworker today with something. It was a new feature that wasn’t even released to the QA department yet. After ten minutes, I found the source of the problem and fixed it. I then get a n IM from my manager wanting to know what was going on with my coworkers problem. “It’s fixed”, I replied. Then she wanted to know what it was. I go into some detail explaining it. Now she wants to bring in a committee “so to speak” to find the source of this problem and see if it affects anything else. She goes and starts giving me the same talk as many times before that we got to make sure nothing breaks.
Mind you that this is a bug that was not released to QA. I had put myself on the chop chain before my manager would get it and it wasn’t even released to me yet. I did that for this very purpose to test these things before my manager gets a hold of it.
Many red flags are being raised in my concious. I feel really stressed out and it depresses me. I thought I had gotten over my depression from the previouse week, but it just went through the roof today.
I don’t know what I am going to do. Is this all me? Is it the medication? Do I need to ask the doctor for a different medication or dosage? Is it my peers? Is it the QA team? Is it my Manager? The anti-depression medication I am taking doesn’t seem to be helping in this situation. I don’t want to deal with this new environment. I don’t want to deal with anything when I get worked up like this.
Tags: Work, Unhappy, Manager, Coworker, Bug, Troubleshooting, Depression, Stress, Judgement, Code, Catching Heat, Programming Practices, High-Pressure, Deadlines, Problems, Red Flags
Time to get a new job. I can help.
Time to find a new job. I can help.