As time goes by
I don’t know why she loves me. Anyways, here is an email from my wife that you may find of interest. I believe the post that she is referring to is “Multiple Personality Disorder, Depression, and Anxiety“.
I read Your blog and i saw what you said about me and MPD. i think you are rightr on allot, and we have had our days.. and as much as it has hurt it has been twice as wonderfull if not more.. As the years go by i find myself loveing you more and more.. i can’t think of life with out you…. last week i woke up in a cold sweat from a night mare and had an angxiaty atack that lasted for about 40 minets afterwards. i did not get sick but i had all the other debilitating effects at which point i just broke down and cryed. G Dot called that morning and came over and smoked after i took my meds and i started to feel allot better. i Also talked to mother befor he got here which also helped.. Lately i have been haveing Angxiaty and i’m not sure why.. but that morning when i woke up i woke up from a dream where i lost you…….What scares me most is at this point in my life i feel i could handle anything *even my mothers death [which i have been mentaly preparing myself for for years now]* accept loosing you….i know we don’t always see eye to eye.. and i know some times we seem like strangers.. but you always come back to me and i always see your love for me in your beautifull eyes and i can not imagian being in any one elses arms when you hold me. You’re probably on your way home from work now.. Basicly i just want to say I Love You. Allot… and as long as you can handle me.. i’ll always be here.
It worries me that she wakes up with so many bad dreams where she is losing me. I don’t believe that I have lost her in any of my dreams yet. She has been angry at me in my dreams about things, but that is just about it.
Angel has many friends that come over to comfort her. I don’t mind it much because they can offer her the friendship that I can not. I’m a clam when it comes to emotions. I’ve been opening up with my emotions to her little by little. The thing though is that I live a little too deep inside my head. I don’t interact with the world much except through my occupation, shopping for supplies, and blogging.
Tags: Angel, Love, MPD, Wife, Anxiety, Depression, Dream, Nightmare, Worry, Marriage, Email, Multiple Personality Disorder, Time
May 1st, 2005 at 4:49 am
creative spelling, but touching all the same.
May 1st, 2005 at 2:39 pm
Its a lovely letter, she loves you so much. Came via BE
May 1st, 2005 at 3:46 pm
Sounds like, when all is said and done you both are very lucky people to have each other. Good luck always.
May 1st, 2005 at 6:42 pm
Has any one els ever read what is under his ever growing infamous picture on the left side of his blog? *allot of times if i am to have a bad dream it will be of what ever i fear most….* Allot of time i will dream of loosing a cat or getting arested again *long storry there* but the ones that realy hit me are the ones where i loos lewie…
And the Creative Spelling is Derived from Dislexia… the older i get the worse it gets….
May 2nd, 2005 at 2:39 am
Quite a pair you two… It makes me remember of the relationship betweem Me and my DH… I suffered from Depreion and Anxiety for three years after getting married. My DH loved me when I most needed it… he stood by even when he didn’t knew what to do, what to say, or where go to get help… In the end I think that prosses made our relationship stronger… Always with Gods help off course. God bless you guys. I’ll be following your story.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:24 am
*smiles* we look after each other. despite any difrences as soon as one of us comes ill or injured the other is right there to take care of them. Lewie has gone through allot with me too. Tho the angziaty wasn’t as bad, *tho i do know what chronic angxiaty is like* we were both depressed on and off. still are occationly. but we try to work with each other and compromise or to be leaniant of the others desires or habbits we may not like. Like your Husband Lewie doesn’t always know what to do either.. but he is always there and allot of times.. thats all i realy need.